Feeling really troubled now. Lots of things.. I really want to decide, yet I can't make the right decision. Should I or should I not. What will it be and what will it not be. What's the outcome or what wouldn't happen. The every decision lies in me, yet i refuse to decide. I chose to avoid. Really wonder at times, what's wrong with me?! Guess I need some counceling by some professionals.
Don't ask me what it is 'cos i won't spell it out here. No point anyway.
Anyway, it has been quite some time since i blogged again. Reason being - Lazy + busy with projects.
The floorplan Jessie and I drew for one of the presentations. A men's departmental store :

Projects are finally ending, tests coming up soon, real soon.
Alvin's VisitI know Alvin has left for quite some time already yet I haven't post anything about that. Guess besides my sis, Pearly was the happiest when Alvin arrived. lol. Pearly liked him alot. Same to my parents, I can see that. (Alvin must be floating now) Don't float! There is a longer journey to carry on. Anyway, I've been a lightbulb almost throughout the whole week. Had tagged along with them to many places. )= Reason being - I'm an unwanted child. lol. Everywhere we go, we'll just eat. *slurps*
Paragon's "Ding Tai Fong" :






Happy them

Sad me


Holland Village's NYDC :






Aussie StudiesGoing to Aussie for my Uni studies is definitely one important decision that I've made initially, and was pretty firm with my decision initially as well. However, thoughts have kinda changed recently. There are pros and cons in both decision, no matter whether I chose to leave or stay.Pros :- I can have all the freedom in the world
- Its a good chance for me to taste the feeling of living alone.
- Its a brand new environment, unhappy past will be forgotten.
- Its easier to get a Uni cert over there and for a shorter period of time. Besides, it has a good environment to study over there.
- Know new people, have more friends internationally.
- Cars are cheaper, can afford a really good car.
Cons :- My grams are really old, I want to accompany them.
- My daddy bribed me. He wanted to get me a car in Singapore if i can enter SMU. (Its permanent over here.)
- I have things unsettled here.
- I have all my bestest buddies here.
- Rong might not be going over due to certain reasons not to be mentioned. I can go all by myself though..
- SMU's cert is more recognized.
Lots of things to consider. Save me!!
Retail TherapyI'm going crazy. Retail Therapy seemed to work too greatly for me till I'm broke. I need someone to support me. lol. Bought 7 tops within 2 days. The pic was taken quite long ago though..Take note (Left to right) : 2 black roxy tops (I love the roxy racer back!), 1 green samual & Kevin top, 1 green and 1 white top shop sleeveless top (The green 1 was sent for washing), 1 green topshop polo tee, and 1 black forever21 halter.

My new S$230 mont blanc pen (Thanx to sis who can get 40% discount):

By the way, this is my dream watch (Alvin's actually) :

Guess how much! You'll never never guess the price.. *phew* Any rich kid wants to buy that for me? lol.
NYDC's gossipWon't tell you what we've gossip last Tuesday of course! lol. Jessie, Elaine and me were supposed to watch "White Noise" in cineleisure actually. Damn! There wasn't any slots. Plaza Singapura's timing wasn't right as well. Thus, we rotted at Heeran's NYDC cafe. We ate baked pasta each. Jessie and I were pretty satisfied with our baked pasta. Elaine didn't like it as she prefer the one at Wheelock.Our drink :

My pasta :

We talked about our future. Elaine claimed that her ambition is to be a housewive that don't cook. lol. Wierd ambition. Anyway, Jessie and I drew a few of the future her :

Singapore Zoological GardensKieran and I drove to Night Safari last night. Really fun! I love the tram rides and everything. Unfortunately, no flash photos to be taken. Thus, didn't take much photos. I love the giraffe, so cute!! I love all the animals actually. We had a close encouter with the bats. Omg~! Its really frightening. Its basically right in front of us, flying across us. Besides, they are pretty fat bats. lol.

Tiger beer?

This won't scare me. The snake wanted o kiss me actually. It must be a male snake!

Our map. We sat the tram + walked the fishing cat path.

Our snack

Our supper at toa payoh

Formal WearWe had many presentations lately. These are our formal pictures :
Me

Jessie and I

Our formal wear for our men's departmental store presentation (Cute right?)
Normal wearJust an update on how I look like now. lol.


Me and Elaine
My Mummy's new carKinda love this car. Its pretty comfy. Quite small though..
My little newphew, JovanIn case you guys forgot about him, he's my cousin's 1+ year old son, Jovan. Cutey little boy!! *pinch* He can talk alittle already. And he's learning to walk!!! Really adorable!
Thoughts for the dayRecently, there's a trend of commiting suicide perhaps. There are many people who committed suicide due to the slightest thing on earth. Some of my friends made the same mistake. Sometimes I really wonder whether they really cherish their own lives. Some people struggling for survival, yet some people throw their lives like its worthless. Is it being responsible? Considerate? Don't they consider the people who care and concern for them? Their families? Friends? Are their lives really that worthless?
My friend just tried committing suicide by cutting her wrist. Eventually, she didn't die of course. She regretted as her hand look really awful now. Reason for doing that? Due to love. Her boyfriend wanted to leave her for certain reasons. By doing so, will her boyfriend come back to her? Eventually he did. But, what's the actual reason for coming back? Is it because he felt hurt and really love her? Or is it because he's afraid of her? God knows..
My thoughts :
1. You live for yourself, not for others.
2. You can regard your partner as part of your life, but never be part of you!
3. People always think that they came to this world with nothing, and leave with nothing as well. They're totally wrong. We leave with hatrad, anger, love, happiness, regrets, satisfaction, etc. So choose wisely what you want to bring with you.