What am I doing online at 4+am when I've got an Investment test tomorrow? Well.. I just ended my revision for the day. I'm online not because I'm too excited about the test that I couldn't get sleep. Basically, thoughts have been running through my mind since a talk with dear yesturday. We weren't talking about our relationship nor any political issues.
Well.. I've got to admit that I'm never one who can get along with another easily, unless really close friends. In short, I haven't got 'ren yuan' since young. Its really bad and heart aching at times you know. Rong's uncle who's a fortune teller told me too, though i'd realized it since young.
Firstly, I'm one with a foul temper. Or rather, I'm stubborn.
Secondly, I haven't learn the skill of bootlicking. Do you know that actually slight bootlicking could be useful in many ways? Of course it shouldn't be too severe that makes people feel uneasy as well as disgusted. Since young, I'd failed to 'bootlick' my parents like my sis do (ooppss.. I mean.. perhaps she knows how to make my parents feel happy). I'm one who don't bother about anything. In the working society, slight bootlicking is an essential skill (that I have to learn before I enter the working society).
Thirdly, you can call me stubborn, old-fashion, or whatever nonsense. I'm definitely not one friendly soul. I hate taking initiative in knowing people or dating people (no matter same or opp sex). Alright, perhaps its just a dislike. Sometimes I admire my friends for their "unique" method of knowing the opposite sex. But sometimes I felt disgusted about it. I know its evil to say about friends of mine. Perhaps its just me - old-fashion???
Lastly, I'm definitely not one who is good at words. I often provoke others with my straight remarks. I haven't realize the beauty of beating around the bush or polishing bad comments to good ones. I know where I went wrong.. Yet I'm uncertain of ways to change. Reason? Yet to find out. Save me.
lol.